To Married Men Who Cheat

WHERE IT ALL STARTS

All too often – married life has not turned out like couples had hoped it would. With the shortchange of dreams of happily ever after due to growing unforeseen conflict we find ourselves wondering what we ever saw in the person to begin with, that we married. Everything from health problems, boredom, a sharp contrast of our interests that allow us to grow apart, perhaps the wretched painful effects of the death of a child or fertility issues, meddling toxic in-laws, spousal abuse on every level, secret addictions with alcohol, gambling, drugs, or sex or all of it, we face the disappointment that the safe place to call home with a supportive loving spouse took a sharp turn from our original vision.  Marriage has become more of an albatross with coping mechanisms rather than a support system, and our desire to communicate and be heard, respected, and loved, begins to take presidentes in our mind, as we feel completely robbed of the entire original vision of what we thought marriage would mean. It’s not long before the area of enriching satisfying intimacy tanks on every level, and the finality of when mutual respect evaporates invites in bitterness and a quiet sense of desperation and boredom become our daily mindset while boundary lines are diminishing and being crossed all over the place.. No, our happily ever after definitely did not shape up the way we wanted, and our eyes begin to focus on the unhappiness of the situation, rather than the God who heals, and that is when we begin to become vulnerable to the enemy’s wiles. Satan loves to demolish marriages and disperse the family into despair in all directions, so before you blink, that desire for fulfillment might be found in another woman.

Or perhaps in lieu of the items listed above, something far more surprising might happen in that men actually do enjoy their marital companion, but still, somewhere along the way, got caught up in the forbidden extra relationship. It might be that fresh face with an exciting personality during a mission trip with our church, that gorgeous woman with the intoxicating perfume that works around the corner at our place of business, or maybe a connection on social media with a long time ago high school girlfriend, and soon the mind wanders into an unfamiliar enticing territory that numbs the pain and boredom. For men, it becomes an allure to a desire for something sexually charged that brings the worst out of us. Happy or not inside of marriage, seeking acceptance and the spice of life you have been looking for, may seem like a promising new venture.

REALITY CHECK:

This is not an opportunity to shame males for falling into an affair or would-be affair, but simply a chance to share how it possibly could be perceived through the eyes of the woman who is pursued outside of the marriage nuptials. It’s a message with the modus operandi to help give greater insight for men from the perspective of the women he finds as a perfect candidate, no matter his circumstances, and possibly without initially even meaning for things to graduate to a place of no return in his relationship with someone else.

Before we continue, we are not talking from the perspective of an Alex character type from Fatal Attraction, a woman with a Jezebel spirit woefully abandoned to her own demise, partaking in a conscience-free seduction, but rather, more from the perspective of someone less dramatic; the unhappily married lady next door with the husband who travels a great deal and needs of help with her honey-do list, the hot new face on social media that you spotted in a comment on a friend’s page, a high school acquaintance, a business connection at work, a child’s teacher,  an energetic fresh face at church deeply devoted to ministry work.

Before long, you are making the attempt to keep in contact with prospective women, exchanging phone numbers or emails, with the interactions culminating into a more interpersonal level with sharing things about your work, highs and lows of the day, and common interests. You find her exciting and mysterious and wanting to lure her into a more racy level of bantering in order to see how far this might satisfy the curiosity you have testing to see if she actually might have an adventurous wild side she is keeping under wraps until pursued.

A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE

It might surprise a man how a lady truly feels about passes and suggestions to toy with the danger of an affair, even if it’s just pushing the line of safe boundaries with a long time “friendship”. A woman not looking for a man to fix her needs or to partake in a side venture from a pure and upright walk, could be found as even more of a challenge, and what an incredible rush to actually see someone who never would normally indulge in such a sin, finally break down, and join you on this path of  choice. If she is of good moral character, that makes her even more alluring, slowly pushing through the barriers of the defensive wall of decency, that gives a man a new unchartered territory to conquer.

The harmless initial conversations have now been exchanged with wandering far and away into the forbidden territory and now you are in it, looking over your shoulder, deleting messages so no one finds them, sneaking around, longing, wanting, wishing, plotting and more. At this point, perhaps even both of you are dealing with the guilt and shame mixed with excitement of not getting caught, which only plays more heavily into the cycle of how it all repeats. The satisfaction of lust, all the more exquisite, as you feel alive, wanted, and appreciated more than ever before. The delight of the way it fills the bill, seems to offer promise of more of the same down the line if you continue in never getting caught.

Or, does it?

In reality, someone along the way is going to want more – and usually the woman. She wants a committment and will struggle to understand why a man plays the field if he is so unhappy in his status quo or even volatile and painfilled marriage. More often than not, something happens regardless of the exquisite promise of a new venture for your love life, in that in the end up – men often end up staying married to the original partner. The wanna-be new life starts to become the center of procrastination and excuses and before too long, your lover realizes, regardless of the loving exaltation, that she was used for something vastly in contrast to what the Word of God ever meant for a woman and was strung along to become another statistic in the world of affairs.

Emotional ties to someone your heart is not truly committed to, will yield to the fact that some day, someone is going to get burned, usually the woman, who looks far beyond the physical connection, and ties her value to how noncommittal the male lover is to her, as if an affair could offer a promising future of security anyway, be it that it’s birthed in a sinful time frame.  The other issue is, the wife may soon find out through a process of discovery, feeling devastated beyond remedy, children in the marriage are thrown into  chaos, and life as we knew it, is a bundle of disarray, raw emotions, and total uncertainty.

I also want to address the men who pursue other women and hide the very fact that they are even married, say it’s done through an online dating site. The level of energy it takes to juggle and hide each relationship from the other, must become quite exhausting in the over all scheme of managing and weaving tales. Whatever the issues that supplied a set up for a new romance, you now have a side relationship that appears to be a safe secure haven that engages your interests, emotions, and physical desires and yet hiding the fact of an existing marriage is far more of a cowardly act than one might like to admit. Even lying that your marriage is far worse off than it is, is also a way of seducing by way of deception.

As strange as it sounds to quote Bob Marley, but oh so true, “the biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman’s love with no intention of loving her”, be it your wife that was promised “for better or worse” that you have cheated on for whatever the reason may be, or the one whom you have stirred into an emotional commitment to love you outside of your marriage, yet, knowing full well, you are not able to be faithful to either party. To entice another soul to fill the void, sooth your pain, knowing very well, everyone is denying the reality of a sad ending. It’s wickedly unfair to have lured an unsuspecting soul into a web of deceit to begin with – hence why the Word of God in Proverbs 1 discusses the sheep led to the slaughter and the fool who partakes in joining his soul to another person outside of marriage. Even if you have had a rare exception of happiness in an affair that ended up working out in the long run, no matter what, you live with the stigma of an affair in your present and past. Those infractions are rarely forgotten and go down in the historical account by family, children, and certainly the ex-spouse and both sides of your world, your’s and her’s ,will whisper of the truth of it, for quite some time.

Personally, having been the unwilling party on the receiving end of this type of pursuit in my history, I have found it completely cheap and disheartening to even be viewed in the most minor way as a surrogate wife to a married man. It short changes everything the Word of God says is pure and honorable of marriage, and towards women as a whole. Having experienced these passes of married men, men in the church especially,  who want a potential rendezvous, I have found the words they use as empty and nothing more than a smoke screen for what is going on in a broad range internally andcertainly would never promise a fulfilling future. Having the opportunity to be his cherished one and only one day seems quite ridiculous especially if he can’t cherish the one and only he is with currently.

LISTEN UP LADIES

Ladies, if you are reading this message, you know very good and well, that if he cheats with you, he will cheat on you. There are better ways to live on this earth, other than playing the game of being the one he hides and lies about in his world. If you are damaged goods by other men, do know that all be it rare, there are Godly men that will protect your achilles heal of past hurts, rather than exploit and use and become an added feature of even deeper scars on your soul.

Affairs, even if never carried fully into fruition of the actual act of full on sex, carries with it the surefire way to fail and be used. I resent men to the nth degree who think I would find their advances, of all things, flattering, knowing it could cost him and me everything, plus perpetuate generational sins already established rather than being the ones that are the catalyst to break that cycle.  Is the reality of all of this really supposed to be a turn on? As it looks, it’s a simple short fix that will amount to nothing more than a need for another fix.

Where are the real mean out there with backbone and inner strength who willfully decide to go the distance?

WHAT ABOUT YOUR HER?

A new-found secretive relationship could cost your partner in the affair everything , as there is no escaping the fact you both made decisions to act in this, unless it’s a girlfriend you hid the fact from that you are married. The fact a man would dull his own conscience to his marriage and the heart crush it would cause his wife, the price tag for his children, and the usery of the other ladies he chases, tells me volumes more about his lack of character than anything else. These actions help fuel the Gloria Steinem mentality that spews bitter hatred and self-righteous this and that, due to the inability to deal with and heal from pain with an attempt to guard and protect themselves from men they have labeled as “evil preying cheating monsters”.

Hey guys, let’s take a look at what women really want. We women need honorable men in our world. I, personally, want a safe covering for my life in the form of a faithful husband. Affairs dilute the institution of sacredness toward marriage as a whole, and for those in waiting for God’s very best like myself, failure to secure the borders against infidelity gives us one more reason to be disappointed in men and diminishes hope that there will ever be a “real man” that can be found anywhere in sight. Any more, it’s rare to find any man who hasn’t cheated somewhere in his lifetime.  The days of men protecting a woman’s honor, seems to have all but disappeared and is now used as a theme brought into films on the screen as an antiquated romantic ideal.

HOW IT WAS MEANT TO BE

People also forget the blessing that comes from the Lord by waiting on Him, for the best person, and in the sexual realm, keeping things pure before marriage and during marriage. There is a reward that comes from two people who truly work at making a long-term commitment priority and surrender the coping methods they have been using to the Lord, and allow Him to do the repair work needed and guiding into a renewed respect for the original spoken promises in our vows. It’s also the finest and the best of two people making a decision to marry, to marry the right person, at the right time for the right reasons. Oh the issues of life that could be avoided, if we prayed first, waited on the Lord for His best, and then proceeded into a life of blessings, rather than the constant challenges that marriages bring when not done in His will, with patience and a true reality check of what we bring to the table in the matrimonial world.

So let’s figure out where you are right now by answering these questions:

How does disobeying the Lord in the first place ever seem to assure a blessing in the long run?

Did you marry the wrong woman in a hurry due to lust and now there are great regrets shopping around outside of your marriage to see what it could have been?

When did respect for each other die in the way of protecting purity of another human being not to mention for yourself?

I personally love it when a man shows a serious level of maturity by realizing what is best for a lady, his own, and others. He opens the door for women, knows what good moral code is, and protects himself from his own weaknesses, even if the other party could never appreciate it. He will flee from the Jezebels that do indeed exist, and in contrast, also understands that if a vulnerable side of woman appears, it’s his duty and place to protect that by simply walking away, instead of maneuvering into a place to take advantage.Yes, she needs to guard herself as well, and as obvious in the situation, two people need to play the role of mature adults and simply flee from the temptation.

If he is my brother in Christ and knows better, and if you lady reading this know better, than why do we push the envelope into the affair level thinking it will ever bring a promise of a stable future more soundly than where we find ourselves now? It’s a lie from the Enemy to set one up for certain disaster.

If I were married, you are toying with another man’s territory, and if I am not, you are treading in the area of that of a future husband and the daughter of the King. Even if you dream of being that future spouse for a new lady, what kind of courtship is that – to be romancing someone while you are betraying your current vows, no matter what the excuse?

To add insult to injury, there is also nothing like the object of a husband’s affection that will guarantee the fury more of an anguished jilted and justifiably angry wife. Your other woman, will be regarded as the seducing villain, the enemy forever in the story, with no recourse, for no one can ever repair the feeling of being “less than”, than a wife that has been cheated on. This is one wound only the Lord Himself can heal.  And please, don’t tell me sir that you are totally forthright with your wife after being caught, only to lay a large amount of blame on the woman you had the affair with or almost affair with … because somehow she gets thrown under the bus no matter if she did or didn’t do a single thing to encourage your desire. Don’t blame your wife either for your stepping into infidelity.

Still feeling enticed to cheat?

What about our children? It sets up a major role model for our children to look up to and they will find themselves knowing that there is a higher standard to wait for in a husband. It’s about self respect as well and the best way to love a child, is to treat their mother with the highest level of integrity.

IS IT TOO LATE?

You may have already been there and done that, way past the point of no return, never having dreamed of having an affair, or even another affair, possibly wrestling with a huge sexual addiction, and are now standing in a position that makes you wonder how in the world this whole thing started. You are staying in a heavily broken and strained marriage by choice in the aftermath, or even ransacked by divorce proceedings, bank account drained, reduced to seeing your children every other weekend, or even more of a dagger in the heart, your children have decided not to have anything to do with you. Your job is in question, and if in ministry, you know full well this could and probably has cost you everything you ever worked for over the years.  And let’s not forget, perhaps an unplanned pregnancy or a surprise venereal disease pops into the scenario for you both to have to deal with the rest of your lives. The gift that keeps on giving. Plus this as well, what about the unbeliever or weak in faith who is watching, thirsty to see if anyone truly lives an authentic Christian life – how about what they perceive in the body of Christ to be true and dependable?

Let’s see first how the dynamic of infidelity is a set-up from the origin, and learn how to avoid the perfect storm of lies from the evil one before it ever hits – that faulty promise that the grass is greener on the other side. Marriage was never meant to fill what only God could fill. That should be the beginning of baby steps toward understanding the Lord is the only and all fulfilling God and marriage is a GIFT and a commitment between two very imperfect people. Everyone woman can produce a vulnerable side, and if inspected long enough you will find her weaknesses and strengths,  what makes her laugh and delights her heart, those areas which men are often all too familiar with – the way of her wounds and needs and past issues that she carries into her present. Isn’t that what attracted you to your wife? So when you see it as an attraction to a new person, it’s the same pattern of setting one up for emotional ties not meant for any reason other than for marriage.

Often men experience that innate desire to either protect or exploit that Achilles Heal of a woman in “befriending” her as a brother, to fulfill her at least with words and encouragement to help her feel whole, only to find himself gradually falling into an unintentional desire for filling that role himself. She will respond to you one way or the other and may even fight you for a while, but if she doesn’t run from temptation, she soon moves closer to you in heart. It’s the thrill of the chase and winning her trust and affection that keeps you both coming back for more. It could also be that she seems quite stable in her ways, and that helps you feel whole and completed drawing from her strength where you can no longer look to your wife for support.

So one has to ask himself, did the affair of the heart start with the first glimpse of each other, or was it when you decided that it was each other’s responsibility to play the fixer upper?  If you can no longer fix your own, you mine as well divert your abilities onto a life that could appreciate it – right? And somebody had to make her aware of how smoking hot and desirable she is – so let it be you to do the task. You feel that she needs to understand that she “deserves to be loved and appreciated”.

Oh danger – danger! This is where we go from flattery to forgery of God’s call on her life. That is not anyone’s place to make a woman feel desirable but that of her husband alone. Your actions will woe her into falling in love and wanting you on a permanent basis and it is woefully unfair for you to truly have no intention of ever following through. This is why the Word of God says to “guard your hearts” (Proverbs 4:23). Even if you have not found yourself intertwined emotionally with a woman, you may feel that an on-line participation of a sexual nature, but no physical touching, is less threatening and more credible as the non-affair type of affair.  However, let this be a glaring reality for all to know, cheating is cheating, no matter how you slice it.

We can dissect an even deeper truth of the vows you willingly took on your wedding day. You took the time to consider your wife, to court her, and convene with her in marriage, for better and for worse.  You are in it, although bored, restless, and wandering, feeling unloved and unconnected, feeling a fresh new face could fool you into thinking that this is the answer, even if just for a temporary fix. But beware, every relationship dynamic has areas that need to be examined, and carrying old baggage into the new, complicated by the very real fact this is an affair, can rarely ever transpire into something promising for the long haul. I will never understand why a man who wants to play the field, decides to marry and stays in it, and justifies all day long running around behind the backs of those that trust him the most. All of it, can go up in smoke with one phone call, a picture for evidence, or text copy – living on the edge of disaster smacks of nothing more than immaturity in character at its worst.

Are the Ten Commandments no longer applicable to adultery? The answer to that is an unequivocal NO. Those virtues of the standard of living in the Word of God,  in Exodus and Proverbs, and more, explains the consequences of this danger over and over again and prove to be right on the money for the 21st century beings we are today. It can and will cost more for the undertaking of it, than anyone ever could have prepared themselves to pay. The Lord put these rules of conduct into place in order to help His children avoid pain and disaster and never for the reason of causing you to live a life that is less than. 

Before you justify your actions to get your needs met outside of your consecrated vows, as yourself how adding another relationship into the equation help the matter?  If you are truly ending your  marriage, then take time to pray and seek Christ, and give yourself time to heal before entanglement with another potential divorce set up with a new person. Do you really want a healthy marriage as it is? Then give it all you have got. And if you do end things, don’t play around for the mean time.

Paul said it best in I Corinthians 7,  that in marriage, there will be “trouble” and that he was trying to “spare them” from that pain and derailment to their walk with God. Part of the subliminal footnote I feel Paul intended in that passage conveys that two imperfect people with a sin nature, enter into marriage and then place the other person in the marriage responsible for all of their needs to be met, and to make all of their dreams come true. I have had enormous pain just in the dating relationships, with “men of God” who most certainly would have been a disaster to have married. It’s pretty much curbed my appetite for ever wanting marriage and provides one fact I can rest upon: never married, never divorced, either.

Marriage is an ideal place to find out how giving or selfish we can ultimately be with another person, and the expectation levels we put on each other are far from the ability any human being could ever endeavor to meet, which leads to the obvious and highly expected let down that ensues. After all marriage is about how we can evolve in Christ together as a team, and not about how we can tear each other apart with the microscope looking for “the answer”. God never intended for it to be the whole picture for happiness, but rather a place where “iron sharpens iron” according to Proverbs 27:17, and for the sake of ministering to each other and with each other for those around you. If one falls down the other can pull them up for two are better than one as depicted in Ecclesiastes 4. It’s to glorify the Lord in the way Christ gave Himself up for His bride, the church as her Husbandmen, and for the wife to honor that role and that man. Remember, Jesus never cheats on His bride and she has certainly been a handful for him for centuries now.

Wives, you as well can play party to the problem of a cheating husband. Maybe you have worked as hard as you can on your relationship, slowly let down over time, by the reveal that the man you loved was not the man you thought you loved. But what if you helped set up this disadvantage for what is now a reality – did you happen to ignore the signs of what was coming?  Did that bitterness and the put downs, the male slamming and bickering happen to lead to a place over the years that your husband just got tired of the stress and felt driven away? Did you refuse counseling? Did you know better than to marry that guy that possibly was unfaithful before you said those nuptials thinking you could change him? Did you marry just to marry or escape another situation only to realize you two were not a life long match? Did you stop being a friend to him, and dismiss intimacy, and became the mother rather than the wife in the marriage? Do you hold past hurts from things of your childhood and other men in your life over your husband’s head as if he needs to pay the price for all of humanity? How about putting a leash on your spouse, did you think pulling him in tighter to your control was the answer? All of this is as self-serving as it can get.

“Perfect love casts out all fear” as I John 4:18 says, but that perfect love needs to be established carefully, with mutual agreement, done over time, and with open and honest transparency. Even if one person is working it harder than the other, at least they know they can put their head on their pillow at night knowing they are doing all things possible to make things work. But if all things are operating out of fear, it will serve as a sinking ship for the bottom of the abyss.

Men are visual, they like to be nurtured, we all like to be nurtured – yes, men, we women desperately need that as much as you do, and when we can’t deepen the communication and be respectful in our quest to get things out on the table for healing and counsel, we heighten the danger for either one in the marriage to seek solace elsewhere. Dr. Henry Wright, a champion on spiritual roots of healing in the ministry God gave him, points out many issues that are given for health problems due to lack of nurturing from those we are to receive it from, even including marriage. Check out his amazing ministry at http://www.beinhealth.or.

Men, do you put down your wives in the company of friends to fit in with their attitude? Does she feel valued, adored, needed, and protected? Have you set her up to feel bitter against you? And that thing we think is “harmless” with flirting, is absolutely untrue. For the small violation of trust with flirting with another, means a larger violation of trust is imminent. Flirting can turn into an all out affair and it is painfully disrespectful to your spouse. Caring, God-seeking friends – won’t set each other up for a fall into sin – so making someone who is a friend an object of your flirtation, can be a very dangerous risk.  One of the things we subliminally wish for in seduction is that even though the girl you are chasing may love the Lord and want total commitment to Him, we want her to respond. She is human, and can fall, so when a man who knows better, looks for insecurities, plays on emotions, trying to slowly diminish the boundary lines of what was once – taboo, and justifies his actions due to his miserable emptiness in his marriage, it creates a total breach of safety for all, and Satan sees that nothing and no one is off-limits. The key isn’t the empty marriage, it’s the emptiness within the people themselves.

The good news is, the Lord has equipped us fully and completely with the ability to be filled with His knowledge by His word, flee immorality, clean up our mind, cling to His Word, and learn from other’s mistakes or our own. One has to be on guard, instant in season and out, and it’s the toughest lesson to learn that the enemy of our souls plants his wiles among the pews and in ministries even outside the church walls, in businesses, and anywhere that people have to interact and where the Holy Spirit dwells. Target practice is common place especially if believers are not on guard. And honestly, I would rather see a cordial end to a marriage that is simply out of fuel, both parties completely spent and done, LONG before one tries out another new relationship, and only then, after a time of counseling and reflection. We don’t want a repeat of what just happened.

Again, my goal is not to berate, but simply to paint a sobering picture and provide a checklist in the mind for future reference that will give you guys something incredibly profound to consider before deciding to open the door to share intimacy with another woman.  The Scripture verse Hebrew 13:4 that says, “Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous,” bears some pretty heavy weight with it and seems rather terrifying to someone who knows that unless they repent of this, get the help they need, and fall headlong into the Lord’s ability to heal, there is a sobering expectation in the long run. It’s even worse, when one does know that truth and still chooses to defy God’s warning.

Let’s look at the fact that there is hope, if two shall agree to get the help they need to safeguard against adultery, or the repeat of adultery. Infidelity, sin, for whatever reason, in whatever form, will never produce the righteousness of God. In the meantime, let’s do our best to remember that truth of the matter and work to overcome the desire to cause another one to stumble along with us. To finish off my ending note, what can we do to prevent a disaster and unwanted outcome in marriage, and when do men need to know that professional Godly counsel is in order to prevent further damage …

Checklist:

  1. For men and for women – do I need to get counseling in my marriage even if I am doing it alone? Do I have a sexual addiction? (There are volumes of places to help with this.)
  2. Do I spend time flirting with the opposite sex calling it harmless, and even convincing myself that this flattery is making them feel worthy and needed?
  3. Do I have a history of infidelity and should I avoid certain types of women that may trigger a desire to step out on my marriage? Should I really be on social media, or stay in the same realm of work on that floor of the church, with “her”?
  4. Am I calloused to my spouses needs and have I become less and less convicted about the idea of cheating? Wives are you pushing your man away and berating him with a honey-do list and income as his means of existence for you?
  5. Am I spending time in God’s Word daily and pursuing the heart the of the Lord to prevent issues even in thought, that could lead to infidelity?
  6. Is my marriage truly over? Have I tried everything to make it work, and have I been totally transparent with my spouse that temptation sits at the door if we don’t work on things together?
  7. Did I see some warning flags with my spouse before I married them? Could I have prevented heartache ahead of time? Was she cheating with you and now she is cheating on you? Were you the one cheating and thinking the next marriage would fix whatever it was that was broken?
  8. Am I lying to myself that flirting with anyone, is harmless? ) All marital infidelity begins with flirting.)
  9. Do I really want to hurt someone I say I care for? My wife, the ministry, my children, the church body, unbelievers who are looking for hope, and the other woman I encounter?
  10. Are there generational issues of infidelity in my family that I need to be freed from? Can I truly be the one that breaks the line of the curse? Of course you can!

I pray for blessings on you as you read this and take it to heart. There are so many blessings when we ourselves remain personally healthy and attach ourselves to the same. The Lord has a great plan for you, according to Jeremiah 29:11-13, and that would include freeing you from the stronghold of infidelity. God bless you as you endeavor to overcome.

Suggested reading: The Fantasy Fallacy – Shannon Ethridge

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Democrat, Republican, Libertarian … Whatever!

If one is a TRUE BELIEVER IN CHRIST, the sobering questions to ask oneself before they post anything political for any party affiliation whether Democrat or Republican or Libertarian or whatever: “Will this draw attention to Christ, OR, will it take the spotlight off of Christ and put it onto me? Am I sneering and bitter in my defense of this party’s agenda or do I display the brokenness of surrender to Christ which is HUGE and powerful and inviting in and of itself without looking like casper milktoast? Will it destroy every ounce of credibility I have ever worked on in the ministry He has given me and diminish the hope of those looking to see if there really is a TRUE child of God out there who won’t betray the principles of God over the love of money or some other motive that’s not pure? Does my political party adhere to the Word of God in major areas that effect the unborn, the elderly, the sanctity of marriage or am I willing to forfeit the principles of God on those majors to agree with a party on the minors? Am I keeping in mind that I will stand eye to eye with the living God and give an account of EVERY line item I voted for?” …. And NO, this post does not invite a political rant from anyone … it’s merely the conviction the Holy Spirit has given ME to write.

When the Odds are Stacked Sky High

A word of encouragement: When the odds are not stacked in your favor, that’s when the Lord will display His finest craft of carrying out the impossible!

Soon after I started promotional work as a publicist for several noteworthy clients, I was diagnosed with a very serious illness that finally answered a great deal of mysterious pain and discomfort for many years. Issues began to escalate into a true emergency in February 2013 with sudden tremors,  insomnia, various pains in my abdomen,  a feeling of nausea, skin inflammation, and a continuum of aches and stiffness.

Right away, it became evident that my ordeal was more than just being ill, which is so foreign to my normal level of well being, but, more a matter that this was a full scale attack from the enemy to attempt to keep me still. Since nothing slips through the filter of our Savior, I had a sneaking suspicion that the Lord was and is sharpening my weaponry  in warfare. The taller the flames of the ordeal, the greater the triumph when we pass through them without even a hint of smoke trailing behind such as with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.

During the months of sickness and search to find a diagnosis and treatment, I  have spent MUCH time calling out to the Lord for His intervention. My literal pray has been “PLEASE HELP ME”, and,  He delivered indeed with the correct label on this problem via a tremendous Christian Doctor who specializes in my particular ailment with the surprising declaration of Lyme Disease. Not only that, but a co-infection that often is affiliated with such a named burden. From what we can surmise it has been in my system for several years.

The course of healing requires medication for an extended length of time that can bring a hefty level of unpleasant side effects,  required enormous detox concoctions, and a sudden sacrifice of ALL comfort foods we have ever known, such as; chocolate, coffee, tomatoes, bananas, anything boxed or canned that has elements in the ingredient list that are not “pure”, and certainly, no spices what so ever in any dish at all. That means no Mexican Food … my all time favorite. Boo Hoo. In other words, extremely healthy and organic.

For relief from unrelenting pain that an average food list can bring, those items have been replaced with a low acid list, alkaline water and green drinks, juicing, herbal teas, probiotics, and a suit case full of supplements.

On top of dietary issues, I’ve had to add a purchase of an infrared sauna used at home, detoxing clay packs, hours of exercise and sunshine, and a preoccupation of my time in order to “treat” the body so that my immune system can carry out it’s orders to heal. Thousands of dollars have been poured into my new living regime to purchase what insurance will not cover, not to mention a nice investment in our local Whole Foods.

I have no guarantee that treatment will cure this, and for sure, the process of undergoing this treatment is much worse than the illness has been itself. With brain fog, fatigue, dizziness, ringing ears, blurred vision, weakness, I am forced to accept that this is no longer a body I know with it’s familiar response to things.  Often I have to brace myself for what each day will bring that is new and unfamiliar territory.

HOWEVER, God is faithful! Often I remind Him of His promises to me throughout Scripture and from the specific times I have heard Him speak to me of Jeremiah 29:11 -14 for His plan, and, Matthew 28 that He will be with me … always. When one hears God’s voice, they are never the same and are none too soon to forget that stunning voice and His given Word of comfort. Several times I have told Him I would wear His ears out with my request for healing while coming boldly before His throne of grace.

Every fiber of my heart believes, by faith, for Christ’s total touch of healing. My nights have been spent with hours listening to healing Scriptures on-line, and speaking out loud to my illness commanding it to leave my body. There is too much to do that requires a healthy enough body, but find that reading through history, many many of the Lord’s most effective workers, had to harness heart aches, health issues, and crippling losses that are part of the fiber of their stories; Corrie ten Boom – lost four family members in the Holocaust and later battled Hepatitis and was silenced for five years from consequtive strokes. Elisabeth Elliot – suffered the loss of her darling beloved husband that was speared to death by the very tribe they were delivering the Gospel to, and to this date, is suffering the ravages of Alzheimers. Let’s not forget the greatest suffering of all with our Savior, Who left the glories of heaven to be humbled while living on this earth while serving His very own creation … and then betrayal and torture to the level of unthinkable, for you and for me. His isolation during those hours of His life were the very moments that allow us comfort to understand that He “gets” our suffering, having been-there-done-that. Thank you Father for not abandoning us in the unfamiliar.

The great comfort in this unpleasant ordeal is that looking back, one can see that of all the trials, furnaces, and valleys, one thing I NEVER have can doubt, is God’s character and His plan. He has never let me down and has used every difficult moment for His glory. So I eagerly await to see what He will do with “this one”, for without a test, there is no testimony. Incidentally, in the Old Testament Hebrew, one of the root words of desert/wildnerness … is “speech”. The desert dry parched moments of life are the required elements at times in order to hear our Lord’s voice.

In the mean time, the Lord has given me much in the way of favor and blessings during this waiting period for “what next” … including a surge of business opportunity I never dreamed possible. In a short amount of time during my darkest hours, my businesses  have been doubling if not tripling. Often I ponder that this illness experience is required in order to buffet my mind, body, and soul to be fixated on Him and not the success of the business. As Paul states, He must increase and I must decrease … knowing that this is my thorn for the time being, I trust increasingly for what He is going to do. In fact, there is no choice but to adopt a spirit of gratitude IN the fire long before I can even see the way through the fire.

Which leads me to ask, what are you doing with your trial? Are you crying out to Him? Are you forging forward no matter what the prognosis? Are you determined NOT to give up and utilize what gifts you have during the hours and days that you are capable of working them? Are you confident that you will emerge from the flames a spiritually deeper and readily prepared soldier for the greater tasks that lie ahead.

He promises He has a plan and will be certain to carry that plan to fruition even and especially using your trial that looks hopeless. No telling what He is grooming us for in the upcoming days, but the issues of suffering now are supreme preparation in strength building for the greater good. Join me in believing what He has promised and that all things will work together for good – Romans 8:28.

And certainly I will cling to this Word I heard from His very mouth in April of 1995: Jeremiah 29:11-14, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”